lost...lost...lost

i dun understand what's going on...and i dunno what's going on....i dunno what's happening around you...i'm lost...not completely clueless nor clear.

I dunno what to do...for certain things i wish to share with you...but...it always seems like you will get piss off easily....for certain things i just wanna express my feeling....but i'll normally receive a negative responce from you....for certain thing...i hope that u take notice of...yeah..some times you do...and i appreciate that... =) really....

i notice a little changes about you....but still some not changed....perhaps you need more time...perhaps you were who you are and changing who you were...
sometimes...humans nature lead us to disasters....In the name of ego, embarrassment, flow of feelings, humans sway and act to present a negative responce to boost their egoism, to avoid embarrassment and to go according to the flow of feeling. Humans....they often do so....Hence, it increase the complexity of lives...lives of a few parties around you

Perhaps...this is what we call...life.I'm lost bout us...I'm convinced by nature of the positive side....but thoughts bring me to reality...facts...truth....no..they did not...because all they brought me to was complications...vague ideas...

What is my boyfriend's life...some one may ask....I dunno what's his plan...i dunno what's he going for...i dunno if he himself also dunno...i dunno if he knows but just dun feel like telling...i dunno if he knows but just not comfirm..hence, not telling me...i dunno bout so much....all i know is...he wants to follow the flow....

I'm not shared with about things....maybe nothing to share ? maybe got, but he thinks it's redundant to share? maybe got, but he doesnt feel like sharing....
i find it difficult to be with you at times...i do...but i love you so much...that i nvr wanna ask for a break up again....but i do...in this position...i do...for many reason...

-guideless about current life-